Thursday, December 18, 2008

Emotional

I have been pretty emotional the past few weeks. That's why I haven't been posting much. (Thanks Darlene for checking in on me) There's just so much going on, that it's hard to think straight enough to write.

I almost never get sad about what Corb can't do, but the other day at Wal-Mart, while Bill & I were shopping BY OUR SELVES I seen a little boy about 2 & he had his boots on the wrong feet, it just made me so sad that Corb will never be able to make cute mistakes like that. See now I'm tearing up again.

Everyone have a great Christmas if I don't post again by then.

Caradie & Corbin

4 comments:

Kalena said...

Don't be sad although Corbin may never be able to make that mistake. I believe in God I am not sure how spritaul you are but I believe god gave you back Corbin and gave Corbin a second chance at life because he can and will teach us so much. God choose you to be his mother and who else would he choose you have done so much for Corbin as he has done so much for use. We have to learn that although he may not talk his eyes are speaking volumes, although he may not walk his feet leave footprints on our hearts. Although he may not make silly little mistake he can not make mistake because god has mad Corbin perfect just the way he is. Corbin has touched many people in person and on the web. I know anyone that would meet Corbin must cconsider it a honour to meet such a innocent courages happy little boy. If I could I would love to meet him and that would be a honour. Iknow I may never meet Corbin but I can't help to watch his videos someover and over again listen to him laugh the way he looks at you. Just treasure him Caradie like I know you already do Corbin is a Angel in disguise.
Merry Christmas to you and your family
Hugs
Kalena and Family

Anonymous said...

Caradie,

I completely understand why this would hurt you. I am so sorry that you are hurting like this.

I know its hard not to instantly want to stop what your doing and begin to think about all the things that Corbin can't do.

It doesn't change things none the less,but it does make things appear to be far less painful if you try to keep yourself focused on the things that Corbie can do.

I know how very proud you are of him/your(our)sweet boy with all the progress he has already made since his accident.

Corbie has proven to us that he's an achiever. He has done things way beyond any medical prediction(s) ever thought would or could be possible.

Caradie:
I have been a witness to observing your home videos of Corbie in training for his next achieved progress more then questionable times then I can recall.

The unconditional love you have for Corbie is much more visiable and stronger then any words I could ever attempt to write on paper.

The one thing I took noticed to while viewing the videos is how mutally strong his feelings are for you in return.

To me~ Corbie is as beautiful in the inside,as he is on the outside.

He is a true gift from God. One gift that will always be treasured.

Sending you a warm winter hug.

Merry Christmas.

~Darlene~

Amy said...

Aw Caradie, sweetie, gosh darn, you got me emotional too. I know EXACTLY how you feel. I get this feeling around this time of year too. When I see other kids, especially little girls, playing with toys and getting all excited about Santa in the malls and stores, I get sad because they can tell Santa what they want with their little mouths like its no big deal. Then that same Santa acts almost afraid of my Emma because she is different. So, we get a quicky shot, and I walk away in tears. My only child doesn't even get to experience Santa in the same way as other kids.

Boy that is tough!! SO, I get you totally!!!

This is a hard time of year for us moms of hurt kids. But we are so blessed, too,for the pure spirits that are in each of our children. Our kids is so much deeper, so much wiser, and such great listeners--because they don't talk. The things they can do are so much more special because of the energy and determination that it takes them to do.

And, most of all they just make us moms (and dads) better people!! Because we see the world in a different way through them, and we learn to appreciate the smallest of things.

One thing is for certain. When we spend so much time, like we do, one-on-one with our hurt kids--helping them achieve their highest potential-- we form amazingly strong bonds with them that I am certain parents with well kiddos can never, ever understand.

You are Cobin's universe, Caradie. He loves you so much, you are his hero, and his biggest fan. You can tell that you almost have an unspoken language of love that only the two of you get. You can see his love and adoration for you in every video you share.

To me that is AMAZINGLY PERFECT!!

I know a lot of mothers that would envy you and Corbin for that connection, especially if they could watch your videos. They would also be amazed by your love, dedication, patience, and preserverance in helping Corbie. (And he is doing better than almost any kiddo I know at making a comeback!! He is amazing!! He has accomplished so much!! A well kid would never know how to work and fight that hard. He is stronger than just about any kid I know--well or hurt. You are one of the best mothers I know--hands down!!!!!!!!!

HUGS!!

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you and your whole family.

grammy said...

I'm so sorry Care that you are hurting. This thought came into mind, he would kick them boots off and go bare foot, just like his mommy.
You have told me that you think you got Corbin back, it was to help other hurt kids with your video's and his web page. All the comment from your friends today are all RIGHT
He has a hold on everyone that sees him from people walking by and smile to people working come to say hi. His eyes just sparkle
You have worked so hard, and look, he has come far more than what was ever thought. I'm so proud of you.